so, lately I have been around kaitlin a lot and I still feel the same way as I did in my last post.... so, now I am just gonna let her stay around for as long as she chooses to..... I thought about it a lot over the last week and realized that it sounds kind of mean but truth is I just don't want to have to deal with it so I am just letting things ( Read more... )

So, I finally got home after a LONG weekend in pleasanton... took kaitlin with me to see how things would go with her and realized a lot this weekend. I dunno if I am ready for a relationship, and if I am don't think its going to be with kaitlin.... I realized this on Friday when kaitlin threw a fit for like the tenth time@ the old me would have ( Read more... )

things have come up recently that have just blown my mind. I can't really explain but let's just say that for the first time in my life, I met a woman that didn't care about having sex with me but likes me for me. its so different that I dunno how to feel. she wants to but I said no..... she was fine with that. I told her it might be a year or more ( Read more... )